Does it matter?

I met someone with the feeling that the system does not fit to his life. While this not that unusual, this person actually converted a Fiat Ducato to his mobile home. He did this in a highly efficient way that I really asked myself how much time he spent with planning. Everything is so space-efficiently. Solar panel on the roof, kitchen with induction stove and fume offtake, toilet, shower, bed, tv, 400Ah 12V LiPoFe battery, 120L water tank, boiler…

Sometimes he said “aber kommts drauf an? Ich glaub nicht” - “but does it matter? I think not”

Somehow this triggered me in some situations while I approved it in other situations. When I tried to pop the discussion stack to trace back how we ended up on a topic, I asked “Well how did we get there?” and he responded, “Does it matter? I think not”.

At that point, I wondered “Well, actually is there anything that really matters? I think not”. This is a point to which I somehow too often get resulting in thoughts about the meaning of life and how it actually matters…

Does my job matter? Does it matter if and where I am on vacation?

Globally seen, nothing does.

But what does then?

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There were times when I thought to have a quite clear understanding of what life is good for and what you should do with it as described here. Back when I wrote that post, I could not have been happier.

I currently have a lot less free time for myself and have a tight feeling of pressure. Somehow I am currently much more unsure of what the reasoning behind all this is and what I should do with the limited time I have in this world. But the adventure goes on…